words are all i've got.

erm, yes. i'm still alive. its been a long time since i updated here. as apology, here are the fics/ drabbles I've written since my last post. :D

Yes, click me!

i tried posting them here but LJ-cut just won't work for me. *_*

so before i figure it out, the fics will have to be read from my blogspot.
정 말 미안해. *does the sorry sorry dance*

have a good day, people!


 A/N: Its my first ever SUJU fic! and and its KyuMin. 0.0

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            You knew from the first day you met him that the both of you would end up like this, only you were too afraid to make the move. When you were placed in the same room as him, so close but oh so far away, you ached in places you never knew existed, although some were familiar and particularly one that kept you hidden under the covers even when the night is sickeningly warm or under a cold shower when its -10°C outside.

It was blur. It was hazy. But it was so clear in your head. The image of Kyuhyun sprawled in front of you, eyes dark with desire, lips trembling from too much kissing and hands pulling you down for more used to be only something you saw in your dreams.

            Kyuhyun was not invited to join in but he sat himself opposite you and poured himself a glass of wine anyway. The wine was already half gone by then; your pathetic attempt to drown your sorrows of unrequited love with the person who is now ironically sitting opposite you. You stare warily at the figure sitting in front of you and wondered what you ever did to deserve such torture of watching the love of your life sipping wine with that beautiful mouth of his.

            It was hot. It was sweaty. But it was good, so good. You pushed him onto the bed but only after stripping him down to nothing but skin; smooth, pale and absolutely delectable. You followed him down, hands roaming, eager to touch, eager to feel, to make sure none of this is a dream because somehow this feels too good to be true.

            Maybe it was the wine, maybe you just couldn’t take it anymore. A clear answer is better than getting drunk on tears and wine and hurting because he’s right there and you can’t touch him. So you crawled yourself to his side and he looked at you questioningly. You told him you’re not drunk before you pulled him in for a long awaited kiss and nothing mattered anymore. All you knew for the next few seconds or was it minutes was how his lips tasted so much better than all the wine you’ve been drinking, how they were so much softer than you imagined and how Kyuhyun although taken aback at first quickly warmed up and opened his mouth.

            It was rough. It was fast. And when bright lights filled your vision, you wanted time to just stop because this moment was everything you ever wanted and never thought you needed. When reality slipped back in, you fear what was to happen. You hold your breathe, unwilling to accept the possibility of going back to square one because this time your heart would not be able to take it anymore.

            He pulled you into his arms, whispered something that went like let’s do it some more. You turned around, opened your eyes and saw the glow in his eyes. His lips pulled up in a smirk and you knew this is how you will always end up; breathless.

            Hey, Sungmin, breathe.

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just to let y'all know.
i won't be on LJ or anywhere near the internet for awhile. i've got a major exam end of this year and i'm so not prepared for it. so to avoid major regret and disappointment, i'm gonna go on a hiatus until the end of this year.

to all my friends on LJ, farewell and see you soon. take care, God Bless.

because my LJ is in dire need of a post.
01.List down 5 names you're currently having the hots for~!
1. KWON JI YONG because really, there is no one better than him.
2. Sungmin - lol. been stuck on SuJu as a symptom of BIG BANG Withdrawal Syndrome
3. Donghae
4. Leeteuk
5. Eunhyuk

02. Would you ever get plastic surgery?
eh. nope.

03. Is there anything in your fridge right now that you would never eat/drink?
not really. :D

04. What's your occupation?
student, fangirl and full time dreamer.

05. Any place on your body that is aching right now?

06. Who was your first ghei love?

07. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Big Bang, i don't really mind any pairing.

08. What are you listening right now?

Monster - SuJu

09. What was the last fic you read?
an unfinished fic called His Own Oneshot

10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
LJ, Youtube, Big Bang Fansite, my blog, facebook

11. Who was the last person you thought of before going to bed?
erm. i think it was Sungmin. :DD


YG's the best!

13. Does the weather affect your mood?

unless its too hot.

14. What is your zodiac sign?

15. Name a song that makes you feel good.
So Beautiful - Big Bang

16. Weird dream:

i dreamt i lost my hamster. 0.0

17. Do you have any siblings?
3 sisters.

18. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
someone please massage my shoulders.

19. What are your plans for next weekend?
school, school and more school.

20. Say something to the person who tagged you you stole this from:

hi, haelin. ((:


If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better! 
Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal. 

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship? 
02) What was your dream growing up? 
03) What talent do you wish you had? 
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be? 
05) Favorite vegetable? 
06) What was the last book you read? 
07) What zodiac sign are you? 
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. 
09) Worst Habit? 
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 
11) What is your favorite sport? 
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude? 
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? 
15) Tell me one weird fact about you. 
16) Do you have any pets? 
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? 
18) What was your first impression of me? 
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? 
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? 
22) What color eyes do you have? 
23) Ever been arrested? 
24) Bottle or can soda? 
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? 
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at? 
28) Do you believe in ghosts? 
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? 
30) Do you swear a lot? 
31) Biggest pet peeve? 
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? 
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? 
34) Favourite and least favourite food? 
35) Do you believe in God? 
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?


couldn't resist.

a screen shot from My Heaven of GD's sexy legs. ;DD


A Question.


If you’re looking to go into a relationship,
isn’t it important to like the guy first before you love him?


Sharing Company.
A/N: wrote this for my sister's 16th birthday. she'a TOP fan and this was her prompt taken from my pjs. == hopefully she'll like it although its kinda short. but really my muse hasn't been helping and i stared at the screen for a really long time before completing this. eek. here goes.


Aish, I hate rainy days.

An echo.

Two eyes met and locked. It was a boy and a girl hating rainy days, sharing the same shelter under the yellow roof of a bus stop. His name was Seung Hyun, her’s Heather; they found out as they laughed about the weather.

“Why do you hate rainy days?” she asked.

“It messes my hair up,” he answered. You?

“Same” and they shared a smile, an amused understanding between each other.

As the rain got heavier, small splatters of rain blew in by the wind dotted their clothes. So they sat a little closer, sharing the same seat in the middle of the empty bus stop. The bus was taking forever and that was how long they sat there together.

He shivered a little; she draped her scarf around the both of them. He thanked her; she said its okay. Because sometimes all it takes to make a rainy day better is to share it with someone who’s a willing company, preferably with a scarf and an intense need to make sure their hair are always nice and dry.

And although forever was a long time, they still parted ways. But on days especially dark with skies about to burst open and pour with rain water, they each remember the company they shared under a warm wooly scarf and a yellow rooftop while the wind blew through their dry hair. And they know really, rainy days are not that bad after all; with the right company.

what modesty?
 okay. so i'm a total noob at photoshop. but i was playing around and wow, i never knew you can do so many things there. oh, wait i did know that, just never got the time and patience and energy to learn more. its on my 'to-do' list though. i will get better.

so here goes. erm. obviously it'll all be on GD. *GRINS*

*hides* gosh, all these were made from randomly clicking buttons. someone please get me a copy of 'Photoshop for Dummies'. i'd love to improve but i'll most prob do that after my horrible exams are over, like in the next year. ==

and here are just normal ones that are too big to put as userpics.

and this was well, for fun. made in photobucket.

erm. credit if you take cus i really like them despite how its not done professionally. eek. *hides again*

Boredom has its perks.
A/N: this is a really short drabble. thought of it in school. lol. chemistry class does that to me.

Ji Yong plops himself on the sofa next to Seungri and watches him in amusement as he flips from channel to channel. When Seungri realizes that there's nothing interesting on the tv, he turns to Ji Yong and asks, "What are you doing here? I thought Young Bae hyung asked you out just now."


Ji Yong shrugs, not answering his question and instead replies, "I'm bored. Got anything to do?"


Seungri smiles and without missing a beat, says almost nonchalantly, "Do me."

"Wh-what?" stutters Ji Yong a few seconds later, staring at the young boy sitting in front of him with his hands clasped on his laps and a twinkling in his eyes who's asking him to what? Do him? Is he dreaming again?


He’s just about to slap himself awake when Seungri beats him to it by no, not slapping him, but by leaning in and giving him a quick peck on the lips. Oh, yeah. He’s pretty sure he’s awake, especially when he licks his lips and tasted yang geng.


“You have been stealing hyung’s yang geng, haven’t you?” Ji Yong says in an accusatory tone, still licking his lips.


“I know you like it, hyung. So.. are you still bored?” questions Seungri.


“Yea, a bit. But I know what I can do now,” replies Ji Yong with a smirk on his face.


“What?” asks an anxious Seungri.


Ji Yong pulls himself forward until his lips are merely one inch away from Seungri’s. He breathes the sentence, “Do you, of course,” before claiming Seungri’s sweet tasting lips with his own and finding himself a new hobby.



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